Wednesday 30 January 2008
Today was Nice
I gotta say that today is a very good day...Well...cuz
- I finally been to sugarloaf(always wanted to go there since last year)
- Theres only 1 class for today(means I can slack)
- I had nice company
- The Sm interview was pretty much good
- God is there and still here for me...always...
I always thought that it would take ages for God to answer a prayer...Looks like I was terribly wrong...GOD is good...even when he doesn't really answer your prayer the way u wanted...cuz he noes whats better for u...
I thank God for my yet-to-come blessings...Amen...
Peace & Love
Posted by Jem at 07:13
Monday 28 January 2008
Good & Bad day
Today was a good day...I was pretty excited about Project 1...Well cuz we can work in groups...I had great members...although I wished that there could be more people in it...
God is really great...he granted me Nick today...I was looking for someone to fill my evening...and was thinking about the people I would wanna see...
As I strolled along the walkway towards the entrance...there came Nick...standing there with his friends...seems like he needed company too...
Had a great time sharing stuff & planning for the future...Talked about lots of stuff.
And on my way back, God granted me my desire again...
But then...I dunno why...Instead of feeling happy...I felt for the worse...Was pretty down. However, Nick won't let that happen...His Gift of talking really encouraged me somehow...Thanks man...
Oh God,
If the doors are meant to be closed...let them be closed...if not...open it wider so that I would know & acknowledge your decisions.
Amen
Thanks be to God...once again you granted me my wants....and again you showed me that not everything that goes my way...would make my day...
Posted by Jem at 06:56
Saturday 26 January 2008
Letting go
Its finally over...after a week of painting for 2d art final assignment...Im free...and so proud of my work...
My idea is based on the crucifixion of Christ...from the side view & in a more abstract way...I thought to myself that since I got no art background & its my first time, I try to be ambitious & do something thats totally new...
Instead of just plain painting & toning skills, I decided to apply the art of silhouette drawing & vectors...Well nobody have ever thought of that idea before...so I thought I might wanna try it out...
The results?
AWESOME!!! I can't believe I finally did it...I thank God that he gave me the determination & strength to finish it...Im not going to post it here though...hehe...want to see more PM me =)
Yes...I know that some ppl cannot appreciate it...what can I say? Art is subjective...even famous artistes gets criticised...I shouldn't feel bad. =)
During my time of peace in painting...I have been thinking a lot...like how important are the people around me...my faith...and letting things go...
For people around me...I would like to thank you all for making a difference in my life...
I will still stand strong in God in faith & obedience(trying hard)
Things that have been left hanging for too long...if there is no more turning point...I might as well just let it go...
As my old literature book once quoted something like that...
"I die to get out of the hurt to live again..."
Its time to let wounds heal
Posted by Jem at 08:09
Wednesday 23 January 2008
Good Day
Today or more like yesterday was a good day...not great but good...
- I got my VPres Final assignment done
- I finished 60% of my im by 1m Painting...of christ
AND my highlight of the day...Live(Crusade) meeting! Yay!
Well...LM are always fun and beneficial...even though yesterday was the last LM till I dunno when...but I took back a lot of understanding from that 2 hour session on Coupleship...basically...it sums up most of the stuff on relationships & problems of it...
What I learnt or rather understand...
- The word Love has been over used, therefore, not really being understood totally the
different kinds of Love exist
- There is only Lust at first sight
- Looks aren't everything...character is...
- Love means you're WILLING to ACCEPT the other individual for who they are
- Set boundaries in a relationship in terms of intimacy(To some extent)
- The Guys should Lead in a relationship...So they are held responsible for everything
- To prefer Sweetness & Romance...or rather...Truth & Character
- Its not self-seeking but sacrificing
- Its not about who is the RIGHT one for you...but are YOU the RIGHT one for that someone
- Do romance sometimes...
- A level of maturity to be able to Commit
- Not willing to commit doesn't mean not loving enough
eg. Mental barriers, not matured or ready, etc...
- Love is about both sides compromising...
- Never resort to breaking up...solve problems willingly...preferably on the same day problem was created...Resulting in stronger Understanding & Trust.
- Love is always blessed if God is put first...
- Imagine 2 balls attached to a rope
- Thrown towards an anchor or a pole
- It would get hooked cuz of the rope in the middle
- It will keep on tying itself round the pole till the 2 balls meet and touch each other
Finally...Love prevails
To think I am able to remember so much even without notes and even to add in pointers & examples of my own...I must have really learnt a lot...To those who have read...I hope it benefits u...
1 cor 13 : 13
- And now these three remain: faith. hope & love. But the greatest of all is love.
Peace out
Posted by Jem at 09:37
Monday 21 January 2008
Happy Skin
Im happy...cuz I finally got my BlogSkin changed...I think it was after like half a year of complaints...All thanks be to Sabrina...took the effort to changed it...The only good I did to my blog is the CrapBoX...haha...now I know how to do it...
Why Orange?
Cuz I like Orange...Its a happy & jubilant colour...If I were to say that u are Orange...well...thats what it means...
Cuz I prefer to be happy than being Emotive...
Cuz I just like the vector design with the orange...Desired Blogskin...haha...
Im still being stressed by final assignments though, but I will get through it...
"I try to live out the idea that it is better to be HONEST than momentarily COOL."
Thanks Ian...Its how I like me to be...=)
Thank God...
Posted by Jem at 08:16
Saturday 19 January 2008
I am myself
Well...sometimes...people often expect u to have this quality or be more of this and that...but then again...if u did...that wouldn't be u anymore...I do have weaknesses and pleasing is not really what I am good in...if i say something...it would offend people...if i don't...i offend people too...so what do i do in this situation...advice me...
I can accept ppl for who they are...but do ppl do the same? I can comfort...but pleasing is a lil hard...if i was taught to accept people for being themselves...then shouldn't the teacher do the same?
I am trying very hard to aplease but for every move i make...even the most picayune(simple or little) faults will be picked on...Will it be fair then for that I did not do to others...My approach of concern is different and giving advices is in my blood...but then...the motive of caring does not differ from others...its the same
No one in this world can aplease everyone when even God himself can't...
Posted by Jem at 07:42
Thursday 17 January 2008
Stressed
STRESS is really taking its toll this week...I am so helpless now...Just gotta pray hard and draw strength from the lord cus that is what I will be drawing about...
Crusade & DG meetings can be easily said the highlight of my week today...I seriously got nothing much to look forward to...
As for now...I am in the midst of being Joy-filled, random tiredness & clinging on to a glimpse of hope...Things might be tough for now...but still I will survive...
I sometimes am so disoriented that I can't tell the difference between Gina & Germaine(they are twins)...its not hard to tell them apart...
Cuz u are the sun in my universe
Consider the best when u felt the worse
But most of all...
Its built to last
I need inspiration...rest...peace...& love...oh God grant them all...
Posted by Jem at 08:37
Saturday 12 January 2008
I have a dream
Finally...a real proper sleep after 2 weeks...wow...I am so glad that I had a good rest yesterday...even though my work is like piling up...Well...its been long since I dreamt and I had a dream last night...
Eveything was normal...and I was happy...in my house...with my family...and I was doing some stuff that I don't really know...and there...just beside me...and we got along like normal...the things we use to talk about & laugh at...The things said that created joy & warmth...
Then I woke up...feeling happy...and realised it wasn't reality...I realised that it was a good dream turned bad...I dunno how other feel about it but I get this type of dreams often...and when you wake up...It just a dream...literally...
Church was good today...I was so touched by the Holy spirit during worship...but I can't help but to control my emotions...for I do not want to just burst out crying...not my style...
The message given was having a heart for God...he is our first love...and I felt like I haven't been realising that...Now...I try to put all my negative emotions down...and give it to the lord...for as the song "so you would come" goes...
Broken hearts, broken lives...he will take them all...
Oh well(Thats what I learnt to say when everything goes wrong and I try to not be bothered about it)....
I have a dream...a song to sing...
Posted by Jem at 23:46
Thursday 10 January 2008
Not Good...
I finally got some rest...slept rather well yesterday...at 1 am...see how work deprive me of sleep? I thank God that I can sleep at 1...I thank god that he helped me with my work and gave me strength to survive the week...
It had been rather hectic...oh well...what can I say...I Chose this course...I still enjoy being in it cuz of the satisfaction of my work...still honing my drawing skills though...
I Thank God that I have friends...but sometimes...its really hard to get a real friend...1 that u look forward to hang with...1 whom I can relate to...Im sure a friend like that will come 1 day.
Theres always choices in life...there is no such thing as no choice...for its ours to make for every single path we take...
when...u go, would u even turn to say..."I don't love u...like I did...yesterday..."
Posted by Jem at 06:24
Sunday 6 January 2008
Lost
Sometimes I feel lost...Like in a sense trying to do something...When I something that is deemed not correct...Im in the wrong...but when u try to do the right thing...it seems as if I am also wrong...
Sometimes keeping peace is important...so much so that I don't say anything...cuz its a type of fear...its not a nice feeling...wow...keeping peace becomes a fear of something...what can I say anymore?
Sometimes I try to make people feel better...but then it ends up the other way round...
Sometimes I try being humble & listen...but nothing is spoken
I dunno what to do sometimes...I think I need help...and a ear that is willing to listen...and not take offence in what I have to say...Im human too...I need some grace...
God please grant me extend grace...and teach me to do what is right...Tell me what is right & what is wrong...so I can be firm & stand my ground for the right cause...
Posted by Jem at 09:06
Friday 4 January 2008
Good days ahead?!
Thanks be to God...for his grace...amenThe start of the new term really eats up alot of my time & money..literally...Just doing an assignment can cost u half of your allowancne...that is if u don't claim from your parents...Im currently doing Visual Pre & 2D art now...gotta say that its not one of the best modules to be put in a month but i guess i'll just have to draw strenght from God and carry on...Have been staying up late for the past 2 days cutting & painting...Its a wow cuz sleep is really important to me...although I was tired, I did had some fun in the process. I think I should start saving up for the future...i realised that I even have to think when it comes to buying my needs...can't let that happen anymore...might wanna try to invest..but then again...i don't have the mind for business...after all, I prefer the carefree(tiring) design life...Then again...I don't think i will need to worry..God will provide...I invest on it...
Did i mention that Jy was at my house chilling & doing our assignment...haha..so funny...Ying wei Pi Jiu Shang Sheng Ti(with that freaky head turn)
Note to self: As much as possible...eat cheap...
What was lost have been returned again...Yay...
Peace Out
Posted by Jem at 20:58
Wednesday 2 January 2008
Hear my Prayer
Hear me my lord...I thank you for your grace & mercy...to bring my joy in times of my agony...but lord...I need you to fill the void in me, to help me find what i lost due to my own deliberate fault. I am torn, I wear happy faces...sometimes i take them off. But lord, u see through me...i ask of you that your love will grant me strength for if u have mentioned it many times in your word, I am sure u really mean it...I pray that u will forgive my for my trangressions...and take my pain away...for what i do not see in me, you see & understand more than me myself. Thank you for your grace...and the people that u have put around me.May i recover what i have lost...in Jesus name i pray...amen
Posted by Jem at 08:07