Monday 26 November 2007

Inner struggle

Today was a good day...filled with inner struggles...


2-4pm

Met up with friends...happy...shopped around without buying anything. Waited for more ppl to come...a lil in the rush cuz we haven bought the tickets...


4-6pm

Surprised...happier...went around talked...then found out a sad fact and a broken agreement(something which I cannot handle very well). Mood turned the other way round...was disappointed and sad. So much so that turned away...I didn't know what to say...What can i say...?


6-9pm

Watched a show...brightened my mood...cant put that feeling down though...still it didn't matter...who am I to say what's right and what's wrong? was reminded again about the misses...

Its not my future Why should i bother so much? Why poke my nose in other peoples business? Why try when I noe it doesn't at all matter to that person? Jem...why so kapo?

I don't get anything from being concerned...I don't want rewards...but look what happens when u try to tell others what right and what's not...U get shunned and people won't talk to u...even though u started it...


10pm

Whatever...can't think...don't wanna care...what for? Its still will happen...people don't listen to you...wake up...

Now

Shag...need a bath...chill & forget it...

There i said it...wow...i feel so much more relieved...Why keep it in you when u got a blog...zzz

Posted by Jem at 07:12

Monday 12 November 2007

Japanese

Konbanwa...Watashi wa Jem des...Hajimaemashite...
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Good evening...my name is Jem...how do u do?

Learning Jap is so cool...yet another dream come true...but its only the basic...not really enough to understand the real animae Jap lang...haha...but I guess its ok...

I have been real busy lately...with God...her...Jap & animation...of course...my dear friends too...haha...

I just realised that Haha...is mother in Jap...can u imagine...all the haha comments made...its like calling mother when something is funny...yea...what great sense of humour my mum have....Just deducted 20 for over using my Hp...

Its ok...I guess God will provide...getting deeper into the word is easy...but applying is hard. I guess we all have to take time. I want to live my life as a good example...so that people will see the light...

Holidays are coming...schedule is packed on the 3rd week...so I might work for extra income on the first & second...

Nothing much...need new blogskin though...people are on a demand for it...and one willing to help me with java?

Ja mata
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Till then =P

Posted by Jem at 07:37

Tuesday 6 November 2007

I felt & fell

Its easy in the beginning
Its fun in the start
It feels very piercing
When things fall apart

Who to seek help from
Where do we start
Why do we choose from
The worse things in our heart

The things that made it hard
Are failed attempts to express
The feelings now is depressed
Robbing the peace, creating unrest.

Posted by Jem at 08:36